Motivation...what an elusive concept!

Okay, is it just me or is motivation a completely fleeting notion? One day I'm all rarin' to go and the next day I have a complete and total meltdown, get drunk to the point that I embarrass myself and my husband in front of his co-workers, spend the entire next day feeling shameful and sorry for myself and then somehow the following morning I'm suppose to get back up and attempt to rediscover that same motivation that prompted me to start this blog just 3 short days before? Why do you think that is? That motivation can be so strong at one moment and then completely non-existent the next? Is there some sort of motivation switch in the brain that can be turned on and off depending on what situation one is in, or is about to be in? I'm not sure about everyone else, but I think for me motivation is intimately linked to my mood. If I'm feeling stressed out or sad, then I tend to have little to no motivation to do anything, whereas if I am feeling anxious there is motivation but it tends to be fleeting, and then when I am feeling happy, motivation is readily available. There in lies the conundrum, to be motivated when happy is easy, but to be happy enough to be motivated... that is the trick!



Okay, enough rambling about my lack of motivation! Even without a strong driving force, I did manage to drag myself to the gym yesterday and participate in my first Yoga class ever! Just in case you have never taken a Yoga class it might be helpful for me to briefly explain the concept. The idea behind Yoga is that through a series of postures and breathing techniques, that challenge your ability to stay balanced and upright, you become in touch with your inner mind and body. In this way you are suppose to find a sense of peace and stillness within that allows you to be in tune with your surroundings and all the energy that exists both within you and around you. Now I'm sure that there is probably a much more elegant way to describe Yoga, but that is my brief rundown of how I perceived it. Now I imagine that for the most part if you are taking a Yoga class instructed by a reputable Health and Wellness facility then there are probably caps to the number of participants allowed in a given session. This would certainly facilitate the process of becoming in touch with one's inner mind and body. However, at a large women's gym club, said "cap" is non-existent and quite honestly there are as many people crammed into one small room with their mats and towels and water bottles, as imaginable. Needless to say, the atmosphere is a little less than conducive to finding inner peace! On the other hand, it was kind of nice, given that I had never in my life even heard of the warrior 1 or warrior 2 balance postures let alone positioned my limbs into them, it was a bit of a relief to be able to hide out in the back during this early part of my exploration into the world of Yoga. Bottom line, I don't think a single class in a large group configuration has given me a true sense of what Yoga can do for me, so I will be giving it another go because I am confident that it will ultimately be fantastic so long as I can get past the initial awkwardness and find a class that suits me more intimately.



Other than that, not much else accomplished these past few days, other than the amazing feat of actually getting out of bed in the morning. I am looking forward to the next few days though because I am optimistic that even if I don't necessarily find the motivation I am looking for to carry on with my big dreams that it will somehow manage to find me!



-C